Hello Again

I know it has been a long time since I have written anything. I have had a second c section and we now have a healthy beautiful 7 month old daughter. We now have 2 living children, one 3 and one 7mo. I am currently breast feeding. It is painful every feeding but knowing I am doing the best I can for my daughter helps me push through. My body has taken a toll from all the pregnancies, I am very out of shape and in lots of pain often. I am currently starting physical therapy for my back and shoulders. I will be going to see a rheumatologist soon as I have not seen one since I was diagnosed about 8 years ago. We moved farther from my family and closer to my husbands which has been good but I miss my family. My Dr is one of the many who is not knowledgeable about fibro so I am having a hard time with her. Im taking it day by day right now.

I have not wrote in a very long time. we have been though a lot since i last posted. loosing Connor was the most devastating thing to have happened to us. then that next April we found out that we were expecting again and i was so scared. i had started working a part time job and my fibro had defiantly been bothering me more. may 18 i went to work like normal and wasnt feeling very well. i got home and started having some cramping and minor bleeding. the cramps got worse so i went to the er where we lost yet another baby. that was my lowest low i knew right then that i needed to do things differently and get my body in shape in hopes that we could one day soon expand our family. i weighed 174 pounds in may and that is when i started my weight loss journey. that summer i worked, in pain and managed to loose 26 pounds. after about 6 months of working we decided that the pain and stress that my job was causing was no longer worth any amount of money. we started trying again for another baby and the first negative test was crushing. we went to the dr to talk about my health and if my fibro and endometreosis had anything to do with loosing babies and not getting pregnant. my dr had lots of hope for us and told us to keep trying for a few more months and if nothing then to come back and see him to make a plan. little did we know we were expecting at that very appointment! we found out about 2 weeks later. i was scared and anxious and happy all at once. this was the beginning of yet another scary venture for us. I am now 27 weeks pregnant with a very healthy little girl and we couldnt be happier. after lots of research and lots of debating we have decided that it will be best to schedule another c section. out little rainbow will be arriving on June 12 unless she decides to come on her own sooner. Amelia Grace will be her name. i am still scared every single day but feeling her dance and stretch inside only makes me feel reassurance that this is Gods plan for us. she will be here soon and she will be healthy. praying and God has kept me going through all of this. i also do not know what i would do without my son Liam. he is me saving grace! he will never fully understand what he has done for us. this has defiantly been my hardest pregnancy yet and will probably be my last unless God has some other plans for us. my body just isnt what it used to be and im in a lot of pain daily. i have been doing physical therapy for my hips but its not really making anything better. today is my last appointment so i need to make sure and keep doing my stretches and exercises at home. my diet has defiantly gotten off track as this little girl wants sweets all of the time haha. i make sure and stay away from my fibro and my migraine trigger foods still. once she gets here i will be eating like last summer and will start working out again so that i can get healthy again so that i can physically be the best mom that i can be.

oct 29, 2012

sorry i havent been on in a while a lot has happened. in june we found out that we were expecting baby number 2, we were very excited and ready for another baby. my fibro was pretty bad this time and i had to quite working and start physical therapy for my back and hip pain and it was slowly helping. on oct 12th we went in for a routine ultra sound at 20 weeks so measure baby and find out the sex. the few days prior i just had an uneasy feeling like something was wrong but i figured i was worrying for no reason, as i worry a lot anyway. the ultra sound tech started the ultra sound and the measurements. after only measuring the head and arms she whipped off my belly and excused herself to go talk to the dr. at that point i knew that my horrible feeling that something was wrong was true. she then cam back into the room and escorted us to a different exam room where we waited for what seemed like forever for the dr to come in. i could tell by the way he was carrying himself when he came in that something was wrong. he proceeded to tell us that the baby had no heart beat and was only measuring 15-16 weeks. i had been in since that point in my pregnancy so i was so confused because we heard a heart beat at the last appointment. he just wasnt growing. i went back in later that afternoon for them to insert dried seaweed into my cervix to help start it to soften, at 8 am sat the 13th i was induced. i went through labor all day and all night and had our baby at 5:42 am sunday the 14th. it was a boy, Connor Allen McClung. i didnt get an epidural like the dr and nurses kept trying to make me get and it was the longest night of my life. i have never felt so much pain to have such a terrible end. out little angel with be buried with my dad and my grandpa. i cant even explain the emotions that i have been feeling. there are so many people in my life right now that are having babies and its hard for me to be happy for them. i held my son for a few seconds but couldnt bare to any longer. he weighed 5.25 ounces and was 6 inches long. my husband couldnt even look at him. we are dealing with this in two very different ways but i know thats ok. our son Liam has been such a blessing to have during this hard time, he is keeping us strong. i think that this has made our relationship closer in a lot of ways, ways i dont know. i just wanted to share this with those of you who do follow my blog. its a huge part of my life now. 

IBS

In one study, 32% of people with IBS also had fibromyalgia symptoms, compared with 4% of people without IBS. Another study showed fibromyalgia occurring in 20% of people with IBS. And studies have estimated 32% to 70% of people with fibromyalgia also meet criteria for IBS. Both are functional disorders. There isn’t anything wrong with the structure of the organs, but with how they work.(http://www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/features/fibromyalgia-and-irritable_bowel-syndrome) Ibs or ibs like symptoms are embarrassing but very real! I have had these sypmtoms all my life but they have recently gotten worse. Diet if a big factor, I've hit a road block in my diet and excersice due to back pain, I have kind of given up. I need to get back on track and eat healthy again it will be much easier once we move home and there are more healthy options like fresh produce and more whole, raw foods.


 Here are 2 links that have some home remedies for ibs I hope they help! http://health.howstuffworks.com/wellness/natural-medicine/home-remedies/home-remedies-for-irritable-bowel-syndrome.htm
http://www.home-remedies-for-you.com/remedy/Irritable-Bowel-Syndrome-(IBS).html

Scentsy

I am soooo excited I am officially a scentsy consultant!! I love the products and it is something that I can do to make a little money to help contribute and it isnt a lot of physical work that will be too hard to handle between my 7 months old and my fibro. My fibro has been really bad lately and there is no way I could wake up in the mornings and get ready and go to a full time job. I can barely take care of my house and my son through out the day. I am really hoping that this will be both fun and help with a little extra money :)

PLEASE WATCH THIS!

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Realization

So my breast reduction got denied for the third time because my husband is getting out of the marine corp next month and they dont want to pay for it. I am sad and mad and frustrated! I have come to realize that it isnt gonna happen unless we pay for it even though I have 8 years of documentation and 4 different doctors saying I need it. My back will continue to hurt :( I have been in so much pain lately I cant keep up on my house work and its getting hard to hold my 6 month old son because he weighs almost 20 pounds. I have been trying to loose weight but its very hard when the only exercise I can do is walking, I'm not gonna get very far with only being able to walk. Its a viscous circle I hurt cause i have 10 pounds to loose but there isnt much I can do about it because of the pain. I have had a kink in my neck for days and I cant even turn it to the right. Having my son has defiantly made my fibro worse but i would not change anything! He is amazing and I love him so much if I could go back in time I would still have him!!